6 weeks

No I won't be writing about my experiences each and every week but just the noteworthy ones.

I still feel ok but the past couple of days have been a lot more yucky. It is about all I can do to keep my head off my desk, off the pillow on the couch, off the island in the kitchen and take a nap. I am not a napping kind of person but it is all I really want to do these days. Talk about being drained!!

As for the rest of it, I don't have morning sickness where I am tossing my cookies all day but rather I am in a constant state of minor nausea. Enough that nothing is appealing to me in terms of food and I really don't crave anything. I force myself to eat something at this point. Not sure how I will gain any weight at this rate! But don't despair....I still manage to force myself to eat McDonald's. No one can say I am not doing my part for the economy. :)

The worst part has to be the enhanced sense of smell I seem to have. Everything is so strong these days! The kool-aid in the refrigerator is killing me because it smells so strong!! I have to run away whenever Mike opens the fridge. So you can imagine how horrifying it is on the lovely Metra day in and day out with all the fine smelling co-riders I encounter......

Little Nogradi

Well it's official - I am going to have a child! It seems very strange to write that and even stranger to say it out loud. I was the one who was not too keen on kids or rather was too caught up in being career woman to really think about it. But now that it's happening, I am excited about what is to come. And at the same time, I am freaked out to the core. Most of my life has been about being prepared for what the next steps in my life would be so that I would know what to expect. Surprises are not my thing. This is increasingly true in that I will not be one of those women who waits until her baby is born to find out the sex - I need to know as soon as physically and scientifically possible. I know what to expect in my job and I prepare myself and plan around what the next steps are there. I know what my day to day is going to be like and can adjust to whatever challenges are thrown my way. I somewhat knew what to expect getting married to Mike - that it would be no different really than what our day to day life was before we got married. That is what I wanted as I did not want those surprises after the wedding day. Having a child throws all level of expectation out the window. I don't even know the first thing to do to even become prepared. Yes I can rely on those who have been had children of their own to bestow their wisdom on me but I am someone who has to live and learn on my own - I have to face the challenges and deal with them myself. I am nervous about all the responsibility that will be put on me and my ability to deal with that. I have not been known to handle stress very well - somehow I think I need to change that :)

I am excited and happy and somewhat surprised (those darn surprises) that it didn't take as long as I had thought to actually get pregnant. My hypochondriac thinking had me convinced that my womb was broken. In all my excitement, I remain very cautious. One never knows the true science of the woman's body. In the meantime, I am enjoying the extra attention that Mike is paying me and the fact that he is taking on all the fun tasks I once had to do (cleaning litter pans, vacuuming, etc). It will be interesting (and maybe somewhat scary) to see a little Mike enter this world. I think that is a scary thought for many people!!

I will continue to keep everyone posted here about the changes, the ups, the downs, and hopefully a beautiful baby come July.